Hey all,
Been a while. Hope all is well with you guys.
So most of you know I've always had trouble sleeping, but lately it's been really bad.
I'm on day 11 with an average of 1.5ish hours of sleep a night (as much a a pathetic and broken 4 hours one night and as little as 0 others)
On the night I managed the 4 hours it was broken and I felt worse than the day before, I also paid by getting less than 1.5 hours for then next 3 nights.
Yesterday on day 10, I hit some hallucinations and the day before that I crashed as soon as I got home from work, but awoke within 20 minutes due to a fucking horrid and vivid dream.
I don't think this is part of the hallucinations but whilst at work, I plugged headphones into my phone and it starts playing a warped (Distorted off key and just plain weird) version of my ringtone (but my ringtone is cut short and this wasn't), my ringtone is already kind of creepy so this didn't make me feel good. I tried rebooting and it was still doing it, I later found taking it off silent makes it do it through the loud speakers and even later on there's now a freaky childlike laugh that goes with the music (which I don't recall EVER being in it before, so possibly the laugh is a hallucination), furthermore whilst walking around my building I heard warped and distorted voices in the basement, I got out of there pretty quick. I've looked at lights above me and could "see" the electricity coursing through it and most recently I "ashed" my cigarette and watched it all float upwards rather than dropping to the ground like it normally would...
Apparently this counts as a form of psychosis (Yay I'm crazy). The thing is It's blatantly obvious I need sleep, but the events of the hallucinations coupled with the horrible and vivid dream two days ago have made me rather not keen on the idea of sleep.
Due to this friends are trying convince me to get a heavy tranq or sleeping pill, but I'm terrified of falling asleep and having shit go south like it did last time and not being able to wake myself up.
Also worth noting is I must drive home in ! hour and 20 minutes... and really the trips to and from work are the only time I've felt truely awake lately due to the low ass temperatures and having my windows down whilst speeding (I realise the speeding is a bad Idea but In my tired state I have little tolerance for idiots on the road driving really slow or just badly in general).
As horrible and fucked up as this is for me, it's pretty awesome from a scientific standpoint, I had no idea sleep deprivation could get this intense.
Along with the above described things last night I couldn't keep my left eye open and earlier in the night it felt like my brain exploded behind said eye and I lost vision out of it for bouts of an hour or two on and off.
So I'm curious as to whether or not any of you have had this happen?
I'd love to discuss it with someone who has experienced this.
Peace out,
Blade
P.S. I've also been accused of being highly paranoid now (due to the lack of sleep) and some random slut told me to get a labotomy, because I clearly have issues >